Thanks

There's nothing quite like reading inspirational words when you're curled up in bed with a runny nose and the distinct feeling that you've been run over by a bus. On one level you feel like you've had an epiphany of the highest kind, and you want to run shouting over the rooftops until you flop, breathless, onto your back to gaze up at the stars in silence. And at the same time you are brought crashing back to reality when you have to reach for a Kleenex to keep snot from dribbling down your face. A distinct paradox, but I've found that life is full of such things. 

And yet, despite the faucet of ooze that has apparently been turned on in my sinuses, the fact remains that I am constantly being reminded that life cannot be spent pining after what might have been. As the amazing Adam Young (of Owl City fame) put it, "I caught myself subconsciously wishing things were the way I wanted them rather than the way they were meant to be." 

This has been driven home over and over again in the past few weeks. Peace only comes when you say, "God whatever you want," not "God, fix the situation." I am finding as I walk unsteadily through this life that the more I say "God whatever you want," the more he makes it what I want, too. 

I am so blessed to have the life I live; I have so many things to be thankful for. I am surrounded by amazing people who are incredibly dear to me. I get to study full-time at a beautiful university. I have a family that is following God. What more do I need? I have no right to demand anything else. I have been truly blessed.